Message From Mommy

Tom thinks that I should post some thoughts, so here I go trying my hand at "blogging". Well, it's been two weeks and a day since my girls arrived and it sure has been a whirlwind. One good thing is that the past two weeks have been so hectic that they flew by like two days. If it continues like this then the next two and a half months should hopefully go by fast too.


I have to admit this whole experience is still a little surreal. I look at pregnant women and get a little jealous, like hey, I should be pregnant too. The fact that I have three children hasn't really set in because I haven't been able to care for the girls for more than a couple of hours at a time, which only consists of taking their temps and changing their diapers. One good thing recently is that we've started skin to skin therapy. You'd be surprised how much that little time of closeness helps you bond with your babies. They are so little, they feel like nothing more than little dolls laying on your chest. When they cry they sound like baby kittens. All the nurses call them feisty little girls, and you can tell that they are strong for being so premature. I'm very proud of them for how well they have been progressing. They have a lot of hard work to do on a daily basis: breathing, eating, pooping, keeping warm - it all seems so simple, but it's a struggle for them. The nurses tell us that they've passed the most critical phase getting through their first two weeks, but we'll still have to be cautious about regression until they are close to coming home.


I still haven't quite found the balance of leaving Evelyn to go to the hospital, and then leaving the girls to come back home. I end up feeling really torn every day. For the most part Evelyn has been doing very good. Just this past week, she had a few bad days where you could tell the confusion and change in routine was weighing on her. She just about broke mine and Tom's heart one night when she cried because she said she missed us. Luckily, she's really bonded with her daddy through this time which helps me when he can do more to care for her. Now that I've mentioned daddy - thank God for him. He's been getting the blunt of my stress during this time. Poor guy. Good for me, he can keep a level head and let my tantrums roll off his back. Hormones and emotions - lethal combo. God picked the right family to send three precious girls to because Tom is good with girls.


Again, Tom and I thank everyone for their prayers and well wishes. I know that we owe Kathryn and Sophia's progress to all the prayers that have been said for them. That's the one thing that gives me comfort during this, is knowing that our family and friends are praying for them. Please know how grateful we are to all of you.

Tom is trying to post as many pictures as he can, but its difficult to get quality pictures because of the low lighting, no flash, and limited opportunities to snap a good picture. He will post more soon. Thanks again everyone!